DragonOfTheAerie
Istari
So it happens with all your stories? I.e. not just this one you've been working on for 4 years?
The reason I'm bringing all this up is because your situation seems marginally similar to an issue I had with drawing. I found that I, at some point after drawing something, was unable to make any corrections to the picture for fear of ruining it (I know this sounds like it has to do with revisions, but stay with me). So I would make little hardly-visible lines and avoid erasing anything (since that usually just ends up worse) and it would end up not being as good as it could be.
Then I realised that my problem was that when I had drawn something that I was even marginally happy with, I was so sure that I would never be able to draw something that good again, so I didn't want to ruin the one good one that I actually had.
So, what is my point here? Well, perhaps you have a similar issue. In that you have this one Big Idea which you've been working on for 4 years, and you don't think that anything you make will be able to be as good as that story; so your subconscious doesn't want to bother with writing it, since it thinks it'll just be terrible anyway (which, of course, is not the truth).
This might not be applicable to you at all (especially if this happens to you with every story you write), but I thought I'd put it out there anyway.
With all my large, involved projects (i.e. novels), yes. My connection to the 4-year project was intense but not really unusual. I get really attached; you might say obsessed. The one I've been working on for four years has been my only major project for a long time, so basically it's had my mind to itself for years. It was very important to me. Now transitioning into a new story is hard. I'm still stuck more or less on the last story.
I have hopes that the new one will be as good, but none of publishing; just letting my friends read. Not much vision at all. I don't know what I want this story to be...which might be a good thing, allowing me to let it become what it is. But anyway, I'm regarding it mainly as just something to do, which makes the writing much easier, but makes it more difficult to get emotionally involved. I NEED to be able to get emotionally involved.
Mythic Scribe
Mystagogue